6/7/10- "Memories"

This weekend was pretty interesting. It definitely started well, and continued with an upward momentum. But by the end of Sunday, I found myself in a place where I felt alone and even a little mad at God for a brief moment (when I say brief, I mean about 15 minutes). In the midst of my anger, I suddenly asked myself "Why am I mad at God and blaming Him?" There was no reason for me to be mad at God. That's when God totally spoke to me in the form of my childhood memories. He gave me two memories:

The first memory was when I was in elementary school. My whole family had decided to go bowling, which got me super excited because I loved bowling (and plus I could beat my older brothers). The closer we got to the bowling alley, (on Valley View and Chapman next to the movie theaters) the more excited I got. I remember jumping out of our old Astro Van and running through the parking lot towards the bowling alley. When I got inside, I noticed that there were a lot of people playing, but I didn't care, I just wanted to beat my brothers. My Dad talked to the front desk for a few minutes, then told me that there was a bowling league going on so we couldn't play, and that we were going home! I'm pretty sure I cried on the way back because I was expecting to play. When we got home, I was pretty mad so I decided to do the meanest thing that I could ever think of (at that age), I decided to ding-dong-ditch my own house. So once my family went inside, I rang the doorbell and ran through into my backyard. I was thinking "Yeah, that'll show them."

I was so mad at my parents that there was a bowling league going on and that we couldn't play. Doesn't this sound ridiculous? I was mad at my parents for something that wasn't even their fault! After God showed me this memory, He showed me another:

The second memory was when I was still in elementary school. My Mom and I were planning to go to Knotts Berry Farm. I've always loved roller coasters, but would SOMETIMES chicken out right before I got on the ride. Well, this time I was planning on going on every single rollercoaster! So the night before our Knott's day, I was watching the weather report on the news. The weatherman predicted rain throughout the next day. I was crushed. I remember walking up to my mom after hearing the weather report with tears streaming down my face because I thought my mom would reschedule our Knott's day. She looked at me with a smile and told me that maybe the weatherman would be wrong and that we'll just wait and see until morning. I went to bed that night still crying because I totally thought that we weren't going to go. My mom woke me up early the next morning and told me that we were going to Knotts! "But it's still raining outside Mom." She replied, "It's okay, that means there won't be as many people." So we went to Knotts in the rain, and had a blast.

After God made me remember these two memories, I understood why. I was basically mad at God, when it wasn't His fault at all and I had no reason to blame Him. Just like the bowling memory, it wasn't my parents fault that there was a bowling league. I think God revealed the second memory to show me that even though the immediate future might be a rainy day, He will tough it out like my Mom and be with me regardless because He loves me so much. God is so amazing.